I was going to create an entire new blog site for this but then considered, just how many blogs can I create and then ignore? Might as well put them all together! My new section, instead of the previous “Mama Blog” category, will be The SAHM Diary. I chronicled my IVF and pregnancy to keep my sanity while immersing myself in something crazy. I figure I probably am going to need something like that again as I navigate this new Stay at Home Mom (SAHM) stuff. My first few entries are all on one post because I wanted to make sure I was going to keep up with it.
It’s 3PM, Wednesday.
Friday will be my son’s last day of daycare. I’ve decided to close my boutique and website I’ve run for 11 years and become a stay at home mom (SAHM.)
Who knows when I’ll have another midweek 3PM quiet house all to myself again? Just one of the things running through my brain. That, along with, am I crazy? What am I thinking? Will I slowly go crazy? Will I ever get to go out again? What if I want a pedicure?
Then I remind myself that my son Keelan is 19 months and growing fast. It took 7 years of trying to conceive (ttc), fertility treatments, praying, voodoo (j/k), just to get him here. Why am I still working non-stop just to pay someone else to raise him? I won’t get this chance again.
So I figure now is the time to embrace my inner domestic goddess. Mom it up. Mom it out. Go full mom on this thing. Just mom the hell out of it.
And I thought it might be fun to chronicle the whole…decent into momness.
Went for a leisurely sushi and sake excursion with the husband, in the middle of the afternoon, just because we could…one last time. (at least before a baby sitter is required) Because leisurely meals and toddlers do not go well together. They really don’t even exist. It’s a lot of shoving food in your mouth hole while you take turns entertaining your toddler table tyrant. It was lovely and I will remember it fondly.
The day is here! It was bittersweet as we said our goodbyes. His daycare and the people there were really great. We will miss them. I’m sure there are some days I will be crying to get them back. But I’m also very excited to get this new chapter started.
Since our first SAHM day was a Saturday, it hasn’t really sunken in. He’d be home all day with me anyway. Sean had to work all weekend so it was just us two. We actually had a really great day. Went to Toys R Us and then lunch at Arby’s. I thought I was winning at lunch and he was eating a lot of roast beef until we got up to leave and I found it all on the floor. I did try out a booster seat instead of high chair for the first time and I think he enjoyed being at the table next to me. Now if I could just get him to eat something besides Puffs I’d be feeling a little more successful at the good mom thing.
He took a good nap (yay!) and then we went for a long walk where I connected with a couple other SAHM’s in the neighborhood and made sure they knew I was joining the club. We are going to need to plan some activities.
Decided to push my luck a bit and do a quick grocery run. Got lucky and scored the racecar cart. Everything is better in a racecar. I kept things realistic by running down the aisles and tossing things in the cart so we made pretty good time.
Home in time for a good dinner (that went on the floor and in his lap) and then a nice bath (followed by naked cavorting and vehement diaper refusal).
All in all…a very good day!
DEAR GOD WHAT HAVE I DONE?!?!?!?!
OK, it’s not really that bad. But it is sinking in that my days will be radically different. We just have to find our groove.
I did discover that cheesy sweet potato mac is delicious. I mean, it made Keelan cry and half went on the ground and in his pants. But the part I salvaged and ate myself was delicious.
I also set-up the new category and finally posted my first entries. Looking forward to getting back into the writing groove as well.