The world has officially gotten weird as the coronavirus has cancelled everything in March and is spreading to April and beyond. I’m currently moving past a state of frustration and disappointment and settling right back into the same place I was working hard to break out of- a neurotic mess of anxiety and stress.

My husband finally returned from a very long deployment and life was getting back to normal. I was making social plans, booking trips and filling up the calendar. I was pushing myself out of my comfort zone and volunteering at conventions and applying to be a speaker at others. I also decided to it was time to finally get my kids book published and created a GoFundMe and had lots of plans revolving around fundraising. Unfortunately it’s not a good time to go around asking for money now that many people are losing out on work and there’s people that need help with more important things. At least there’s no deadline on that though, and we can pick right up where we left off when things settle down.

But momentarily, all future plans and goals just imploded as this coronavirus spread and one thing after another was cancelled. Now the future is basically on hold and uncertain and I just want to crawl back in bed and wait for it all to blow over.

Of course I can’t do that. I have to keep going, but the problem is that I have no idea how or which direction to go in. This thing just gets worse every day and everything in our area is shut down. The schools are all closed, and there’s nowhere to take kids either because museums, parks, libraries, etc. are all closed. Grocery stores are being depleted…. it’s just crazy.

I’m torn between trying to keep going and pushing forward, and just saying screw it and staying offline and not bothering with anything. I guess my short-term solution is to just whine about on the blog and clean the house since I’m stuck here while trying to avoid the general public.

***I wrote this yesterday morning and then spent the rest of the day trying to motivate myself to keep moving and accomplish something. Trying to focus on the fact that this will eventually go away and things will return to normal. So I cleaned and organized and plan to keep doing that today. I listed a lot of new stuff in my Poshmark Closet and on eBay. I just keep trying to remind myself that the world will bounce back and so will I.

So how is this global pandemic affecting you and your every-day life? Are you going about business as normal or has it made any kind of impact?